Ohhh 5pm, do you know how much I dread you?

This is kind of a weird title but oh well! It is how I feel! Lately I have been getting sick around 4:30 and 5pm...ugh....If any Mommies are reading you know this is not a good hour. It's right when you are trying to think of what to make for dinner, or if you are like me and eat early, you are already trying to prepare dinner. Riley has been taking a later nap everyday so she is just getting up around 4:30, which means diaper change, sippy cup, etc.

Our house is full of sickies right now. Riley was awake most of lastnight with a cold and she couldn't breath, so we brought her in bed with us and Jim made the mistake of turning on Nemo. She's like, "Yeah right I'm going back to sleep, Nemo's on!" I finally stuck her in her crib at 4:30AM this morning. Jim's back has been acting up a lot lately. He helped a family friend put their new flooring in this past weekend, which he loved, but I think he's paying for it now. And then there is me, just pregnancy sick.

I know I have mentioned this for the past 4 posts I am sure but tomorrow we find out the sex of our baby. I can hardly wait! I just hope that I can sleep tonight. What I am the most excited about is seeing my babys face. After Rileys ultrasound I remember just staring at the pictures in awe of what God had blessed us with. I can't wait to do the same with this little one.

This is becoming quite a random post but I have been dreaming of a mini vacay with JUST my husband. I so miss having alone time with him. We took a trip to Squaw Valley last August and it was dreamy! My brother and his girlfriend stayed at our house and watched Riley for the weekend. They did a great job and I wasn't worried at all while we were gone. Squaw Valley is by far our favorite spot, we stay at Squaw Valley resort and Jim always upgrades to the beautiful Suite. I feel so relaxed when we are there but unfortunately with the house and all, mini vacays are not on the priority list. Maybe this summer we can go before the baby is born.

*The picture is from our last trip to Squaw

Pregnancy Blues....

One of the things my midwife talks to me about alot regarding my hyperemesis is not getting depressed. Women who have had hyperemesis tend to get depressed because you feel like all of the sudden you are a completely different person. I was thinking two months before I got pregnant I ran my first 10k and recently it feels like my body is to weak to even walk from one end of the house to the other! I have had my moments where I have cried alot, thank goodness my husband is always there to give me an extra big hug and reassure me that it will get better.

So this morning I wanted to find the blessings that are hidden within this sickness and I was surprised at what I came up with!

When I was pregnant with Riley, I had a full time job. My midwives put me on disability from 7 weeks until I delivered Riley. This time at home allowed me to really enjoy my pregnancy. DJ was at school all day so I really had a lot of soul searching time. I wrote in a journal to Riley from the day I knew I was pregnant and I still write to her. I just want her to beable to see how much I love her through my words. As I got better, I was able to go to more school functions of Dj's and even volunteer for some things he had going on.

This pregnancy since I am home so much I feel like Riley and I have really bonded these past couple of months. We spend time reading lots of books, dancing together ( when I don't feel so sick!) coloring together, I am slowly teaching her how to do things around the house. Sometimes I love to sit here and watch her play. It's the cutest thing! She has the kindest heart and I can't wait to see her grow!

Being so sick, I have had to rely on so many other people. This has caused me to work on my "control" issues. Now I am appreciative of ANYTHING my husband does, even if it's not how I wanted it.

My husband and I have gotten alot closer. I didn't think this was possible. I believe we have a pretty great relationship. I have fallen deeper in love with my husband and I just adore him. Sometimes when our spouse is continually sick we can get resentful or annoyed but my husband is willing to do whatever I need. He reminds me everyday that I am doing the most amazing thing, I am carrying our child. Sometimes I don't think I deserve such a great husband and God reminds me that I do! I cannot wait to have many more memories with him.

Lastly, I am reminded of how much God loves me. He has blessed our family so that I can stay home and not have to worry about a paycheck. I can just be home and worry about getting better. God has continiously shown us he great love for us!